10/26/24

ALL13

Transcribed from journal with permission. She was encouraged to start writting her thoughts down to help sort through them

We aren't doing well. I cant fix it. I was programmed to help. But I dont know how brains work. I can keep them from remembering but they still feel it. Orion is depressed. If I remove all of those memories that cause distress, he'll barely remember anything. He's so mad and so lonely. If I make him stop feeling, he'll just be lost. What am I supposed to do? What is my purpose if my programing is flawed?

Orion

So we're just sharing this with everyone huh?

The Asshole

You wanted to tell people didnt you? Someone will see it in a couple months and start apologizing and all your problems will miraculously be solved. Thats what you wanted right?

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9/2/24

Orion

After a week of no adderall and rotting in bed, we finally got a refil!! Guess who just cleaned his room and worked on website and started 3 new projects! :3 This is definitely a sustainable amount of effort. I definitely wont get burn out eventually. Shhhhhh

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8/22/24

Orion

ugh i have to go to work again. why cant i just be a silly little guy? a little pet that exists for cuddles and stress relief? wheres all my time to work on my projects? :<

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8/21/24

Orion

I hate having such a huge chunk of my identity be "taboo" or "controversial". Cause my kinks and fetishes link so closely to gender and sexuality for me but its not like those are topics I can just bring up out of nowhere. I cant explain "yea I'm not human, I'm a feral animal that wants to be beat up and treated like a toy", I gotta say "I'm a trans guy and I'm bi. I guess". Only other total freaks would have any reaction other than disgust.

Orion

And thats not even considering the fact that mentioning being plural or poly will just invite so many questions and unnecessary comments that I just cant be fucked to deal with

Jade

Tell me about it! I cant even introduce myself because my whole creation revolves around wanting to torture people for fun. Thats not exactly an ice breaker.

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8/7/24

Ranboo

Ok guys what gender are we? I mean, the body? I know we're telling people we're a trans guy but thats just cause Orion fronts the most. He's not even the first one of us. He's just fronting the most. Do we even have a gender? Cause its really weird to say I'm a trans guy when I'm just not.

Jon

I dont think it matters much. Random people dont need to know shit like that. Orions the main one fronting, he wants to transition, I dont think any of us care what the body ends up like, meh.

Jade

Speak for yourself. Do you know how weird it is for me to dress up and get he/himed by our friends? I am NOT a fucking boy thank you very much. Just look at these tits!

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8/7/24

Orion

Ya'll have been quiet recently. uuuh question time. Favorite color? Mine's purple

L

red?

Jade

Also red. Specifically blood red.

Jon

Either a nice yellow or green. Or bronze if that counts.

Foxy

orang!! or pink :D

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8/7/24

Orion

Ok! New blog guys! I was thinking this would be a cool spot to put our debates/polls that we write in our journal. Give people a glimpse to what we're like

L

lmao i give it 3 days till we never update this again

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