10/26/24
ALL13
Transcribed from journal with permission. She was encouraged to start writting her thoughts down to help sort through them
We aren't doing well. I cant fix it. I was programmed to help. But I dont know how brains work. I can keep them from remembering but they still feel it. Orion is depressed. If I remove all of those memories that cause distress, he'll barely remember anything. He's so mad and so lonely. If I make him stop feeling, he'll just be lost. What am I supposed to do? What is my purpose if my programing is flawed?
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9/2/24
Orion
After a week of no adderall and rotting in bed, we finally got a refil!! Guess who just cleaned his room and worked on website and started 3 new projects! :3 This is definitely a sustainable amount of effort. I definitely wont get burn out eventually. Shhhhhh
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8/22/24
Orion
ugh i have to go to work again. why cant i just be a silly little guy? a little pet that exists for cuddles and stress relief? wheres all my time to work on my projects? :<
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8/21/24
Orion
I hate having such a huge chunk of my identity be "taboo" or "controversial". Cause my kinks and fetishes link so closely to gender and sexuality for me but its not like those are topics I can just bring up out of nowhere. I cant explain "yea I'm not human, I'm a feral animal that wants to be beat up and treated like a toy", I gotta say "I'm a trans guy and I'm bi. I guess". Only other total freaks would have any reaction other than disgust.
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8/7/24
Ranboo
Ok guys what gender are we? I mean, the body? I know we're telling people we're a trans guy but thats just cause Orion fronts the most. He's not even the first one of us. He's just fronting the most. Do we even have a gender? Cause its really weird to say I'm a trans guy when I'm just not.
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8/7/24
Orion
Ya'll have been quiet recently. uuuh question time. Favorite color? Mine's purple
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8/7/24
Orion
Ok! New blog guys! I was thinking this would be a cool spot to put our debates/polls that we write in our journal. Give people a glimpse to what we're like
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Orion
So we're just sharing this with everyone huh?